Let it Rain – Finding Gratitude in Grief

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I Love the rain. I always have. Maybe it’s because Water is my element. Maybe it’s because I’ve had sorrow in my Life and the rain is fresh and rejuvenating. Maybe it’s because Spring is my favorite season. Maybe it’s because I want to feel Pure and Clean. I wish this was the type of rain I was talking about today, but what I’m talking about is the rain that pours from the Heart, the Soul, and the eyes. This rain is grief.

Grief is a very common process we go through when we have had a loss or trauma in our Lives. This grieving process is a normal, natural process but it can become very difficult if we don’t accept it and allow ourselves to work through it. Oftentimes, we allow ourselves to grieve the loss of a Loved one but we forget to allow grief for Oneself, whether that loss comes in the form of death, separation, or REnewel – as is common whilst we evolve from negative emotions that may have kept us stuck. Rebirth is for everyone but sometimes we have to let go to get there.

We’ve all had trauma in our Lives at one point or another but the key to overcoming trauma is to get to the root of it and give permission for SELF to grieve – which can be the most difficult part. Whether we are transitioning from trauma or addiction, experiencing the physical death of a loved one or a spiritual death of oneself, grief is relevant to the process.

The beautiful truth is that consciousness is always streaming and we all have a Higher Self right on the other side of the veil who only has our individual best interests at Heart. When we deny ourselves the important process of grief, we truly become detached from ourselves and our emotions, so it’s beneficial on a Soul level to Allow the energetic process of grief to ensue if it needs to, because it’s not worth the trauma that’s caused by keeping it inside.

I AM Grateful for grief and its process because it allows me to know that I AM Alive and that I have Loved and been Loved.
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This is grief.  This is sorrow and you have to know that you will grieve and be prepared for it so you can begin to Heal.  This is a process that isn’t easy but will be made more difficult if you don’t allow yourself to go through it the proper way.  By not allowing yourself this necessary process you will only prolong it but it also helps to understand it and what to expect.  You are grieving and you will do so until you are finished and no one will know how long that will take, especially you. You can’t expect to just “be done” with it because it is a vulnerable, delicate time and will only make it harder.  Change is hard. There will be times when you will feel as if you are okay only to find 2 days later that this may not be the case and we should nurture ourselves as much as want to wish it away.

You will be in denial because your mind is having a hard time accepting this very different reality but it will slowly allow you to access the other emotions involved as you are ready. You will be angry because you are in pain and because you miss your “friend”.  You will be angry because you are scared of what your Life will be without this dear Soul to turn to. You will feel somewhat helpless because of the circumstances and this is called “bargaining”. Accepting the new reality takes time and this may cause a need to control certain things, especially the pain and fear. Behind the need to control is sorrow and, once the mind is finished masking these other symptoms, the sadness begins and this is painful. This is where it can get tricky and avoidance comes in because it may feel like you want to release the sorrow but, in order to do that, you have to allow yourself to feel the pain that comes with it.

Heartache is hard but it doesn’t have to be if you allow yourself to feel it Truly. The best way to do that is by honoring your friend and the Joy they brought to your Life.  The heartwarming moments that come to mind when you think of them (or yourself) in tribute are the key to mastering this process.  In these moments is where you will find your friend and, more importantly, their Spirit.  These are your memories and no one can take them away from you. The best way to honor your friend is by allowing yourself to remember them in this way. These moments in time are forever sealed in the Book of Life, the Akashic Records or the Cosmic Mind – however you wish to look at it.  The Love you have for each other is forever recorded in the Universe and will be there for all time.  This is where you will find your friend both now and “later”.

Find dignity in the agony so that you can rejoice in the memories. Allow yourself to cry the tears because it means you Loved your friend and you are releasing the pain that should not be kept inside.  You cannot remember the good times by avoiding thinking about your friend at all. In order to honor the memories, you have to honor yourself in remembering. Be forever Grateful for all of the memories in every moment that you think of your friend.

I will say to you that there must be rain in order for flowers to grow.  There must be rain to maintain balance on Mother Earth.  And, most importantly, there must be rain in order to know that you Loved your friend, they Loved you, and you will miss their presence in your Life.  I will say to you:

Let it Rain…

After the Rain comes the Rainbow and this is acceptance.  When you see the Rainbow you will know that your friend is just on the other side filled with Joy that you made the journey down this road together.  You will See and feel the Spirit of your friend and their Gratitude that you Loved them enough to remember and Honor them in this way, even though it caused you great pain and heartache.  Thank them for walking down this path with you and for being with you when you finally reached the Rainbow.  This is when you will know that they are always with you and will forever be a part of your Soul and you of theirs.  This is when you will remember where they are; and where you come from.

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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Dying to Live: Unity and Oneness, or Corporate Rule?

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By Jennifer Deisher

We live in a supportive Universe but do not live in a supportive system, and it’s the principal of this conundrum that influences our lives by way of our mental, emotional, physical and spiritual perspective.  

The system we live in is a slow burn into a personal and private prison of negative emotion perpetuated by antiquated ideals in regards to energy, government and finance. Our society isn’t functioning from a place of teaching us how to live healthy lives and thrive in Wellness, rather we are taught how to slowly die instead.

From the smallest proton to the vastness of the Universe there is a constant and consistent force, and that force is energy. Energy never dies, it just changes form – and this is also the definition of Spirit or “God”. We don’t have to be “religious” to use something as simple as science to “prove” that energy has an effect on each and every one of us.  We can use our understanding of energy to determine how our society shapes and forms our emotional and spiritual health to get a basic foundation of how energy profoundly influences our daily lives.

Love and Fear – Energy’s Vibration

“If you wish to understand the Universe, think of energy, frequency and vibration” ~ Nikola Tesla

All energy has its own frequency which is the rate in which the energy vibrates. It’s a proven fact that ‘negative’ energy vibrates at a much lower frequency than ‘positive’ energy. As seen in the water molecule experiment, Love has the highest vibration of all and creates sacred geometry when Love energy is directed at the water molecule.

Human beings are also made of energy and our energy is our very Life-source, because our bodies couldn’t function without energy. By volume, the human body produces 60,000 times as much luminosity per cubic centimeter as the Sun, which makes human beings quite radiant indeed!

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The simplistic thing about emotional energy is that there are only 2 emotions from which all other emotions stem – they are either Love or fear. Obviously fear is negative and Love is Positive, and we can visually see the difference. This means that if there is negative energy directed at a person, society, religion or social class then we are all affected in some way through labels and judgment or the “ego”, which is a service-to-self mentality. And the opposite can be said for positive energy.

Mental Slavery of the 99%

At this point we should all be familiar with the “elite” or “the 1%”, who hold the majority of the world’s wealth and prosperity. According to an article in Forbes Magazine, almost half of the world’s wealth is owned by just one percent of the population.  

The fact that there is a global elite in the first place suggests an imbalance. If we live in a “Freewill” Universe then how is it that we can be so trapped and confined within a system where we allow a select few to speak for the masses? This also implies imbalance because most of us don’t remember having a choice in whether or not to participate in the system from Birth. The elitist system is based on conditions, rules, structure, labels and limitation which encourages and expects society to create a self-manufactured image of perfection in order to feed the 1%.  

If we can find a way to empty our cup of all we think we know, we can re-assess the situation from a higher perspective. The system runs on the fear, stress, trauma and negative energy of its participants. It’s imperative to begin to free the mind from the propaganda that is programmed to keep society on a short leash, by giving our power away to the governments, media, doctors, banks, corporations and pharmaceutical companies.  

Like the “Wizard of Oz” there is a proverbial “man behind the curtain” who is pulling the puppet strings of the few to manipulate the many.

“Mental slavery is the worst form of slavery. It give you the illusion of freedom, makes you trust, love and defend your oppressor, while making an enemy of those who are trying to free you or open your eyes” ~ Eli

I recently watched the Hollywood movie “12 Years a Slave” which is based on the book written by Solomon Northrup. It’s the true story of how he was taken as a free man and forced into slavery for 12 years. Solomon Northrup had already known Freedom but other slaves that had been born into slavery couldn’t be convinced that they were indeed “slaves”. This raises the question of how would we know that we don’t know in the first place? Furthermore, if we are born into an invisible slavery system based on a prison of fear and negativity, how would we be able to recognize it if it’s all we know and all our parents know? Especially if our parents and their parents perpetuated the fear based mentality by passing it down from generation to generation?

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Fear is the most negative energy that exists in its vibration and the most “hateful” thing we can do to one another is encouraging one another to be fearful or inflicting pain because of our belief systems. By keeping the general population in fear, we feel “threatened” whether we realize it or not. And as a matter of fact the U.S. has been in a declared “State of Emergency” since 1933, which has the intention of fear. This fear leaves us in a constant state of stress, in the fight or flight reaction it brings, thus leaving the Soul to quietly be consumed by the unhealthy emotions that fear brings — in its many forms.

Energy, Power, Wealth and Resources

In stark contrast, the supportive Universe is teeming with Life and is Limitless and Infinite by its very nature. The point being that if we are supporting an “elitist” system the Universe is also supporting this system as we Live in a supportive Universe. It’s quite obvious that the “elite” feel that they are entitled to resources including energy, water, and financial wealth — but where does that leave the rest of the 99%? I don’t know who decided that they were in charge of auctioning off resources that belong to ALL of Humanity’s children. As a child of my Creator, it is quite logical and apparent to me that I don’t have to “earn” my right to be here in the first place, and I certainly shouldn’t have to pay or fight for resources that are for ALL of us and not just a select few.

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When we support an elitist agenda we are in fact enabling ourselves to give our Power away to some sort of “authority figure”, and think that said authority figure is going to come to the rescue when times get tough. As many are finding out, this is not going to happen. The scary part is that the agenda has never been in favor of the masses but yet we support it anyway and, not only that, we teach our children to support it. This inadvertently leaves behind a legacy that cannot sustain itself or our planet, which is also consumed by our “negativity” in a physical and spiritual way.

Energy and Resources

Energy is an important factor in this discussion, especially when one takes into account that Free Energy Technology has existed for quite some time. For those who are still skeptical of this, please check out the open sourced documents for a quantum energy generator and this short clip of the Quantum Energy Generator reaching resonance for the first time in the One People Community Aouchtam workshop. 

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Fossil fuel and the petro-dollar are the cornerstone of our enslavement as this gives the “elite” all the excuse they need to invade countries for their resources under the guise of “terrorism”. With a select few “stealing” energy from the masses by way of fossil fuel when there are cleaner and better ways, we can begin to see how the global resources have been manipulated to line the pockets of the few while leaving the masses in poverty, illness, homelessness and hunger.

The mainstream media is owned by corporate conglomerates who, like oil tycoons the Koch Brothers, buy the way for their agendas to make it into law and governance, and decide whether or not to report their dealings on the “news”. 

Health Care

This is also true for the pharmaceutical companies in that they do not promote Healing or Wellness rather they invent illness so they can profit from treating the symptoms but typically not the root cause. 

Have you ever noticed how doctors know exactly what surgery to perform or exactly what drug to prescribe which only treats the symptoms but rarely the root cause of the illness? It’s baffling that insurance companies refuse to pay for more holistic treatments and approaches to Healing in general. There’s plenty of “illness” to go around these days too, if we also include psychology, trauma (PTSD), addiction and depression. But there’s no time or financial resource spent on Healing. There’s always a pill and an “instant gratification” solution so that you can buck up and get back to work, or jump through hoops to maintain an economic solution when one is unable to “earn a living”.

There’s a great documentary called “Escape Fire: The Fight to Rescue American Healthcare” which is a must-see if one is questioning the state of Healthcare in the U.S. (or comparable economies). To learn more, visit the Escape Fire website, watch the movie trailer, or support the film-makers and pick up a copy on DVD.

The War Machine

The war machine is what the “elite” agenda relies upon to keep the populace in fear and terror, while keeping them in control of finance and resources. There is no Love in war and no one ever “wins”, as is evident by the “war weariness” that has captured the Hearts and minds of the masses. Yet, we find ourselves on the edge of our seat waiting for the next excuse to invade a country rich in resources or another who is considering putting an end to the fiat dollar in the best interests of Humanity.

An Era of Corporate Rule

There was a very important Supreme Court decision in the Hobby Lobby case that will give more “proof” that the agenda of modern government is one-sided; Corporations, by law, have the same rights as Individuals. This means that we have a Government that is for The Corporate, and not a Government that is Of The People, By The People, and For The People as stated in the Constitution — which therefore violates our Constitutional Right to Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness. Meanwhile, our Senators and Congresspeople argue over Corporate interests.

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And this was also in our face lately, in regards to the recent Supreme Court decision McCutcheon v. FEC. Quoted fromMoveToAmend.org:

On January 21, 2010, with its ruling in Citizens United v. Federal Election Commission, the Supreme Court ruled that corporations are persons, entitled by the U.S. Constitution to buy elections and run our government. Human beings are people; corporations are legal fictions.

We, the People of the United States of America, reject the U.S. Supreme Court’s ruling in Citizens Unitedand other related cases, and move to amend our Constitution to firmly establish that money is not speech, and that human beings, not corporations, are persons entitled to constitutional rights.

The Supreme Court is misguided in principle, and wrong on the law. In a democracy, the people rule.

WE MOVE TO AMEND.

Click here to sign the ‘Move To Amend’ Petition. This is important because, in the words of Supreme Court Justice Stevens (January 2010)…

… corporations have no consciences, no beliefs, no feelings, no thoughts, no desires. Corporations help structure and facilitate the activities of human beings, to be sure, and their ‘personhood’ often serves as a useful legal fiction. But they are not themselves members of “We the People” by whom and for whom our Constitution was established.

The Role of Organized Religion

Christianity and other “religion” teach us that there is a judgmental “God” who sacrificed his son in order to save us from our “sins”. This is unhealthy and another way we give our energy away to those we perceive as being “above” us in some way, and perceive our humanity to be inherently “sinful”. It teaches us that we/they can do whatever we want to each other and the planet (sin) without consequence, when the Universal Law of Polarity states that there is Cause and Effect to everything.

The true teachings of Jesus speak of the Power we have by way of the Law of Attraction to Create our reality — and this is what we do everyday by continuing to sell our Soul to a select few while our children are dying in war, famine, emotional trauma and poverty.

There is no judgment or condition in the Real emotion of Love and it is Christ Consciousness that must return to us from withIN, in taking back the Power we have chosen to give away by “default”. There is no “messiah” rather there is “us” and we are the ones we have been waiting for. It takes a great deal of Faith to decide to no longer support the flawed system of limitation (including religion) that we have allowed to rule us in an Infinite, Intelligent, Loving, Abundant Universe.

As Above, So Below…

The Law of Correspondence (Immutable): The second of the seven Universal Laws tells us “As above, so below; as below, so above” ~ Tania Kotsos

This means that there is “harmony, agreement and correspondence” between the physical, mental and spiritual realms. There is no separation since everything in the Universe, including you, originates from the One Source. The same pattern is expressed on all planes of existence from the smallest electron to the largest star and vice versa. All is One.

The Ancient Greek Temple of Apollo at Delphi refers to this great Law of Correspondence in the inscription “Know thyself and thou shalt know all the mysteries of the gods and the Universe”. This means that what we inflict on others by way of our limited perspective of what we are “told” vs. the Truth is the same as hurting ourselves because we are all Connected. As above, so below.

The Truth is that we can no longer excuse ourselves with denial in order to leave behind a Legacy for our children that includes a planet in which to live on. We have to begin to make our government, financial system, big pharma, and corporationsaccountable for their actions; by not doing so we are enabling our own demise, much like an insecure victim, enabling our addiction to this incredibly flawed perception of “Freedom”, which actually teaches reliance instead.

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Unity and Oneness

Working with others involving emotional trauma, it recently occurred to me that it is much more difficult to Heal the hurt of misunderstanding the misuse of energy and the power we have given away on a personal level. But it is possible.

Each individual is different but our experiences speak of Unity and ONEness. If we can Awaken ourselves to the societal issues without throwing our hands up in denial and powerlessness, we can begin to find our Spirituality again through this Freedom. If we can embrace our Power as “the masses” we can begin to support a New system of Free Energy and responsible governance, especially when it comes to financing the few.

In an Infinitely supportive Universe, we can begin to Live and Thrive through the Healing of the planet and the “trauma” we have endured together while we were “sleeping”. We can shed our self-manufactured image of perfection in order to work through the process of RE-building something that is in favor of the 99% of US, the Human Race. A supportive “God” (Universe) is a LOVING force of energy that wants what WE want and will support us in Limitless ways.

I believe that Free Energy Technology is the first of many waves of our “liberation” and it’s now being distributed Freely via the internet and social media. From here, there will be no more stealing of energy via fossil fuels, war, money mongering, and keeping the masses in fear. When we realize that our energy has been Free all along, we will see that the most important things are also Free, like a Loving Universe and the Human Connection of ONEness.

It starts with each and every ONE of us by RE-focusing OUR energy on more and more productive ways to shift our reality to ONE that is for the Greater Good of Planet Earth=Heart and her Creatively Intelligent children, the Human Race.

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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The Angels are Here

I AM Honored to be in your Presence!

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The Angels are among us. They are all around you if you but open your eyes to See them. They are the people around you with their Light on and with Love flowing from their Hearts. The tears you cry when you weep with Compassion at what may be happening in your own Life or the Lives of others. They show up in kindness when the kindness has left your own Heart. The angels are the Atlas that holds the weight of the World on their shoulders and the Atlas that is the Roadmap to Salvation. The people who have their hand out for you to grab hold of when you lose your way. The children in our schools who are bullied for being different but stay strong anyway. The children who are sick and teach us to Live every moment of every day, and those who care for them. They are your children who you tuck into bed every night, creating a better world for them when they grow up.

They are the Whistleblowers and the Firefighters and the Peacekeepers and the Teachers. Behold them as the sliver of Light you See in your darkest hour. They see the Beauty in Life and have learned to look at things with the Good Eye. They are the Healers and the Psychics and the Witches and the Goddess of the Moon. The kind of people who inspire you everyday on every level. The people who have received the gift of forgiveness and know that to truly forgive, you must Forgive YOURself first. There is acquired wisdom in knowing we are ALL Clean in the eyes of the Creator, we hold no grudges for we know not what we do without the Presence of the Creator to influence our hearts and minds.

They speak to our Heart and Soul through their actions and not their words. The drama kings and queens who aren’t afraid to show emotion. The artists who show us all of the brilliant colors and see the wondrous Gifts our Mother has provided us. They are the farmers who grow the food we eat because they care. The caring people who take time out of their day to give you a smile when you forgot how. They are the martial artists and yogis and the athletes who have mastered the Mind/Body connection. They are writers, researchers and citizen journalists who gently nudge you from your deep slumber.

They are the people who place value on the status of Life instead of value on the status of money. The people who know we are all children of Earth and nurture her spirit. The indigenous among us. The Tribal Elders and the Shamans. The people you go to for advice because they know how to listen when you need an ear. They are the Lightworkers who Light the path and the channelers who bring you the “news”.

They are the addicts and alcoholics whose Hearts are wounded from the harshness of this World because they don’t know how Worthy they are of Love. They are those who have Loved and lost and Lived to Love again. The musicians who play beautiful music that speaks to each of us in a different way. The people who are trying to make a difference in the World and wouldn’t have it any other way. They are the sentimental people whose Hearts break when they don’t See Kindness or Compassion. They are the Creators of their Universe and Live by the Universal Laws. The Grateful that never fail to say “Thank You” for everything that comes their way – good or bad. They bring miracles that happen in your day, no matter how big or small.

They are all around you and waiting to be of service in your hour of need. They are the ones who suffer so we will See, including the ones who are dying so that we may Live. They are above you just waiting for you to ask for their assistance so they may fly to your side. They are watching you and standing by. They are the wayshowers who can show you how. The veils have thinned and are getting thinner, they will arrive in force as they are awakened to their calling. They are everywhere and they will be taking over, slowly at first then ever faster. They are there if you need them, you have but to ask. Do you know one? Do you See them? Could you be one? YES…

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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Hope and Faith

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Here’s a story called “Hope and Faith” ~

Hope can be a dangerous thing. It speaks to our discontent and where we wish we had “more” in our Lives. BUT, it also speaks to waiting for a “white knight rescue” which rarely ever happens.

Faith and Hope are foes because Faith speaks to ACTION! Even if that ACTION is quiet contemplation. What more do you need to contemplate right now?

Yes, it ALL depends on YOU only.

You do not want to meet Hope, you want to meet Faith. Hope is just out of reach. Faith is Always with you. Hope likes to keep you waiting. Faith is Infinite. Hope says you’re not worthy, or beautiful, or lovable. Faith says you’re worthy of all that and more. Hope convinces you to repeat your “mistakes”.  Faith Inspires you to Live it…ALL of it.  Hope lies.  Faith Trusts.  Hope asks you to be “of the world” and take it personally. Faith asks you to be “in the world but not of it”. Hope bargains and begs and borrows and steals. Faith Accepts. Hope is FULL of conditions. Faith is Unconditional other than “first do no harm”. Hope says maybe. Faith says YES! Hope says “trust me”. Faith says “Trust yourSELF”. Hope leads to despair. Faith leads to EnLightenment.

Music to drive it Home ~ Have a Little Faith in Me – John Hiatt

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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Safety First ~ Ending & Grieving an Abusive Relationship

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Grief is a most unpopular yet relevant topic of discussion. Maybe that’s why society has a hard time honoring the process, especially when it comes to complicated grief as it pertains to abuse. No one ever tells you to prepare for grief as you would prepare for the convergence of a hurricane. Sometimes grief shows up unexpectedly in any number of ways; like the angel of death on a beautiful October day at the end of a Hawaiian vacation. Ideally, we know grief is coming in some way and have the foresight to make room in our lives for the storm. Specifically, preparing to end or ending an abusive relationship is tricky. In these situations, the victim may feel powerless but preparation allows the edge required to move forward and get back to the joy of living life to its fullest potential.

The process of grief is ultimately about coming to a place of acceptance. There are many milestones along the path where pieces of acceptance come. It won’t come all at once or the way we like it. It is about acceptance, after all. If it were easy, we wouldn’t have to take a journey to get there. So, as with any trip, we prepare accordingly. Grief is a trip, sometimes even reaching psychedelic proportions. The more we resist it, the more it will let us know we’re still trippin’. But, we can map out a plan of action where we consider our options and gather the tools we need to prepare our emotional, spiritual, mental and physical house for the storm to come.

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Grief is like giving birth in reverse.  Instead of new life, we find life leaving us. We don’t want just anyone peering in on our anger and pain when we’re suffering just as we don’t want just anyone watching us in the primal act of sex or childbirth. These are very trying times in being forced to confront the most deep-rooted vulnerabilities as we learn to trust again. If you’re”here”, it’s because trust has been broken somewhere along the way on the deepest level of your spirit; you, or someone you love, is in an abusive relationship. At the very least, you have been spiritually violated and it mostly likely doesn’t stop there but ripples out to the physical, mental and emotional. Accepting this is a milestone.  This is our higher self telling us we can no longer sustain the way we have been.  This is when most of the tools in your toolbox will stop working.  Finding a way to exist outside of the abusive relationship is imperative.

Separating isn’t easy.  A child leaving home.  A lucrative business arrangement gone sour.  A parent who moves from the physical world.  Losing a home in a devastating flood while the world looks the other way. All of these things are grievous. Equally or not, when we separate from an abusive relationship, it is the biggest emotional storm imaginable…our own. If someone is abusing you and then tells you they didn’t do anything “wrong” or they “can’t help it”; believe them because they are telling you they are going to continue. This is a milestone of acceptance. The next step is creating separation. This is an ideal time to find a midwife; even if that midwife is buying some time off work, finding a healer and/or moving to shelter. As in any “survival” scenario, to move is to live; You must find higher ground. When we feel violated in a relationship and only one person is willing to change or admit there’s a problem; we find ourselves getting lost in the hope things will eventually get better. When an abusive person either can’t or won’t get help, we must take charge in order to obtain, maintain and protect our dignity as we allow grief to part the waters of change. We can never allow these things to ensue if we don’t have safe haven. When it all ends, what we seek is what we find; the truth. The ending provides the perfect opportunity to see the true colors in the relationship. Threatening to leave and actually leaving are 2 different things so keep in mind, it will get worse before it gets better. If the situation is physical or sexual, trying to leave before finding safety is dangerous because this is a breeding ground for violence. In the case of emotional, verbal or mental abuse; we have to create a safe space of “no contact” with the abuser. The fear of things getting worse will paralyze the victim like a venomous animal paralyzing its prey for a meal. Find sanctuary. When you have found separation from the abuse, this is a milestone.

After separating from the situation, clarity starts to sink in forcing an assessment of the emotional and psychological injuries that were sustained in the relationship. Triage. This is when the addiction sets in and you may start missing them, or think you do. What’s missing is the idea of the relationship as the illusion it is. It’s not crazy or insane to manufacture a more ideal reality as the feelings are very real but encourage us to believe the other person is equally suffering in our absence.  E-motion is a verb meaning to move emotional energy, emotion is necessary to get to the truth.  The feelings, the intuition and gut feeling of truth, is underneath the illusion that this is a healthy relationship. Healthy relationships are not abusive or one-sided. Love is not being chronically and consistently scared, tense, edgy, unhappy, neglected or so much worse.

This is a dynamic relationship so the provocateur is most likely experiencing the equivalent of a scratch while you are absorbing the brunt of the damage like the cherry on top of an already fragile psyche. This moment of realization can be overwhelming and isolating.  This is when you need to know you’re not alone, have your team standing by and allow yourself to reach out accordingly. The next moments will be tumultuous as you fight the urge to go back; bargaining for the illusion to be true and not the other way around. When the glass house of the illusion is shattered, everything is upside-down in the rabbit hole. This is when the earth shakes. To top it off; you may realize you feel “victimized” while the instigator is using emotional triggers as niceties, storming the castle with rage, screaming in anguish, calling you crazy or riding off in the sunset of alienation depending on the pattern of abuse.

You are addicted to this relationship too.   The body releases hormones at each stage of the roller coaster ride – the high of coming together, the stress of the slow demise, the whiplash  of devaluation and finally the pain when you find yourself discarded with less energy than it takes to pay a bill.  That’s why it feels so good in hoping, goes south in anger when it starts deteriorating, turns to agony when it’s over.  Do you really want to go through this again?  This person, substance, entity or institution is not worth your life. You may not be consciously choosing this but there is a pattern of allowing it; even if this pattern goes back to childhood. It’s the pattern that needs to change, not you. Remember that. Love is why we come “here” in the first place and it’s the reward once you actualize your own Self-Love by not giving your energy away to those who don’t have your best interests at heart. Trust takes time to earn, you are worth the time it takes to earn trust. God, however you choose to define it, is asking this of you. Honor that. That’s what it means when people say “it’s them, not you” and it’s true. Accept this, it is painful but you are very close to getting your life back.

The pain is the hardest part.  I wish I could say that this kind of rejection is easy. This kind of rejection is different because of how damaging the relationship is/was.  You have been emotionally,psychologically, physically and spiritually effected. You probably feel crazy as you unravel the truth. Gaslighting is a term used in psychology because it’s real and damaging; the instigator tries to change your reality by insisting they didn’t do or say the things they did and said. This makes you doubt your own sanity while you don’t even know you’re doubting your own sanity. You’re still trippin’! It’s okay because you’re safe. You feel as if the pain will never end but this is also the convergence. In order to release these things we have to allow them to pass through us. You have the tools. You are actualizing Self-Love and have a safe place to give birth to your pain. The midwife is nurturing and brings soul food. They hold onto you in the moments the pain sets in so you can remember the light on the other side. The pain is a milestone but you can also get lost here. Make sure the midwife knows this. Allow the pain and anger to pass through because this is the storm you’ve been preparing for all this time, the entirety of your life up to this moment. Find a safe place to exorcise and exercise your anger because you will be pissed off and want to let them know about it.  This is not conducive to your recovery.  Find another way.  Those ways are infinite.

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Make a home with your Mother, the Earth. She is waiting to heal you. Be Grateful. You may not know how to receive Her. It’s okay. Humility is a milestone. Accept it, it’s Beautiful. Will you honor your abuser as if she/he were yourself by admitting that they have also suffered in this dis-ease? Can you forgive, even if the only way you can do it is letting go and away from this person? Are you willing to receive the path that waits before you, even if it’s unfamiliar? Will you go back because it’s easier than facing the unknown? Can you answer these questions within yourself honestly or do you need help receiving your truth? Will you commit to your Healing? Do you remember the ancient ways of your soul and its journey? Are you willing to receive a Spiritual Awakening into your life?

You shouldn’t have to fight for your Divine Inheritance, in a relationship or in the world, but you did. You are a mighty warrior. Look how far you’ve come. Sometimes it really is better to be seemingly alone rather than subject our Sacred selves to this kind of nonsense. Accept this. You have been granted an opportunity to Love again. You hold the staff of Life in your hands and are prepared to spread your message of Faith and Healing. There is someone out there who needs to hear your story. It is your Divine destiny to walk this path with another as someone has walked this path with you. Go forth with Compassion and banish abuse from the vocabulary of Emotional Intelligence. This is your Purpose and, you aren’t just important to yourself, you’re important to someone else’s awakening journey. This is the last milestone if you choose to Accept it. You are a powerful Healer and will Heal many more. Thank you for your service.

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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Blue Water ~ Minding Emotional Pain

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― C.G. JungModern Man in Search of a Soul

There are times in life’s journey when we simply feel blue.  We sense something is ‘missing’ and emotionally fall into feeling the absence of something stronger than its Presence.  Hidden in these moments is an opportunity for spiritual and emotional growth as the universe is opening a doorway to transcendence.  It’s our choice whether or not to walk through it.  Emotional and spiritual time are not ‘linear’ which is why  we may find ourselves emotionally triggered at anytime in life regardless of ‘timing’.  

What happens when we’re having a hard time processing our emotions?  Most likely, the ‘programmed’ mind will begin to lead us astray in resistance to finding and retrieving these pieces.  The ego tends to create familiar or repetitive stories around the emotion because the mind has its own way of interpreting information.  It draws from the past and our patterns of behavior in order to interpret and filter our reality. The mind has a hard time letting go of “what’s next?” so the tendency is to go back because it’s familiar.  It may obsess on past or future events in order to prevent the true origin of the emotion to surface.  We may perceive anger as pain, bargaining as OCD, material worth as self-worth or loss as obsession; the vastness of our emotional expression is as diverse as the human condition.

Questioning how we’re feeling and why doesn’t bode well for keeping the ‘status quo’ and we expend a great deal of our energy trying to sustain said ‘status quo’.  Many societal expectations tell us that feeling and expressing emotion is weak or unnecessary. When we have a belief system around this idea, it leads to emotional resistance which is why we have a mental and emotional health epidemic on our hands where the ‘quick fixes’ being prescribed are as dangerous as the cause.  Denying emotion can lead to adverse mental effects and psychological complexities that chronically deteriorate our well-being on every level  We become depleted and find it  increasingly difficult to function in a healthy capacity.  The pressure to release these emotions encourages us to find an acceptable way to emotional and spiritual balance as we learn to navigate the paradox of the deep below, the subconscious and unconscious mind.

The Paradox of the Mental Universe

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“The law of polarity states that: Everything is dual, everything has poles; everything has its pair of opposites; opposites are identical in nature, but different in degree. It is also the first of the mutable or transcendable Universal Laws. It means that there are two sides to everything. Things that appear as opposites are in fact only two extremes of the same thing. ” ~ Tania Kotsos – Mind Your Reality

It’s normal for the mind to resist new ideas and experiences as it prefers consistency and patterns.  However, the more we try not to focus on something, the more we deny its existence, the more fiercely it will get our attention.  For instance, we may have a fundamental trauma around the emotion of abandonment so we focus on feeling connected by filling our lives with casual relationships to jobs or friends instead. But, we don’t let anyone get too close because we haven’t addressed the underlying, root issue.  Deep inside we’re also afraid of intimacy and acceptance.  We subconsciously keep distance in relationships which causes us to feel the abandonment on a deeper level; by trying not to focus on it, we’re still re-creating it rather than confronting it.  Fear of intimacy, acceptance and abandonment are all varying degrees of the same primal wound – the internal root grows many saplings.

Whether we look at emotional release as healthy or detrimental is all in the perspective.  The fact remains that it’s our responsibility to take care of ourselves by listening and responding.  The hardest thing is making peace with our own turbulence but we truly can’t have it any other way.  Life is moving, it’s not waiting for us to decide but it’s encouraging us to lighten our emotional baggage as we go.  When it’s confronted it ultimately leads to spiritual en-lighten-ment but as it goes unchecked it brings a great deal of ‘stress’.  When we finally stop running, we literally pass through the ‘mental’ realm of our own loveless projections; what we know as ‘judgement’ of self and others.  We have to love our ‘karma’ because it’s the universal reflection of our deepest wounds and greatest gifts all at once.  

This is when we see that 2 opposite extremes can both be true at the same time. The child of ‘abuse’ becomes a loving parent but finds themselves triggered later in life by the dichotomy of self as parent and child.  The wound is still there but our perspective is always changing so we can heal on a deeper level.  In spirit, all is One and “as it should be”.  We are human beings processing information and sometimes we have a hard time finding acceptance. The big hairy monster in the closet is typically our very own resistance to something we already know inside.

Blue Water

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Pain is a natural occurrence of the human experience and emotional pain is no different. Unlike physical pain, emotional pain can be avoided and denied until we have gone from pain to suffering.  Additionally, we sometimes go through tough and transitional moments in life such as a loss, endangerment or even a natural shift in perspective that causes doubt or insecurity to arise.  When we learn to sit in stillness with our emotions, we learn to reach a meditative state as the observer.    Sometimes we can mistake base mentality thinking or listening to the ego’s rhetoric as being ‘mindful’ of our emotions.      

In spirit, we learn to connect with the vastness of Love in the Universe but we all have an inner antagonist.  A purposeful response is protecting our own dignity and self-worth by finding out what it is and what it wants.  We can’t make this connection with our mind rather we must make an emotional and spiritual connection through our heart.  It requires a part of us to step aside and this is where we need to find patience.  It can be difficult to quiet the mind.  If it weren’t, we wouldn’t notice that everyone seems to be talking while, at the same time, no one seems to be listening.  We all want to be heard but we have to also learn to listen; listen to Self, the Earth, the Art, the Music, the Yoga, the Breath, the Wisdom of our Sage and timeless Spirit; the infinite withIN.  The universe speaks in a quiet whisper, the ‘ego’ speaks quite differently.

We are all healers.  By healing self, we open the prison doors to emotional freedom and expression.  It’s okay to contemplate and question.  Ultimately, it’s our ability to find sanity in an insane world that is natural and organic.  It’s in our nature to be curious about the universe and, when we play the universal scavenger hunt, we become demystified…our own mystic.  When we look to nature and natural creation to soothe our wounds, we detach from the deafening rhetoric and find a place to plant new roots.  We must rely on the truth of our eternal spirit to grow free from our primal wounds and the distractions of society’s limiting institutions.  When we decompress from our pain, we heal the individual and collective psyche.  Letting go lifts the burden of tension and brings clarity helping us better manage what’s on our proverbial plate.  Clarity returns as spirit takes over lighting the path to a more peaceful way of being.  

We can’t have both worlds – to be true to self we must honor our inner world and our emotional wounds.  Blue water sometimes feels more like fire water.  The fire burns off the dense energy that creates the patterns and programs of insanely doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.  As we leave the insanity and face the ‘wake of damage’ it left behind, the water soothes the burn of ‘regret’ .  Remember, honest emotional expression is Beautiful.   It’s every color of the rainbow.  Blue is the color of our truth and our divinity.  It’s a Gift, even though it may not feel that way in the moment.  It’s what we create with it that matters.  Something Blue, maybe?

Music to drive it Home: Rascal Flatts ~ Feels Like Today

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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God’s Vineyard ~ Initiating Spiritual Growth

By: Jennifer Deisher

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We all have access to a higher creative, intelligent power and a beautiful spiritual vineyard where we each have our own sovereign plot.  For argument’s sake, we’ll call this loving source of power “God” with an understanding that our power is something we are all seeking, whether we realize it or not.  We begin learning to attract “things” by using The Law of Attraction and/or spirituality, but it takes a combination of modesty and discipline in order to practice this in a spiritual sense; not a place of ego. We become accustomed to giving our power away to authority and external things until we forget how to have an intimate relationship with God in a natural, organic way.  It is up to us to plant divine seeds in our vineyard; using our free will to ask for tools that allow us to grow and learn.  If we’re not feeling a little “dumbed down” from time to time, we’re not learning anything.  Why allow ourselves to feel embarrassed or stupid for our own naivety?  Compared to something all-knowing and all-encompassing, we are the equivalent of an innocent child.  We can go about educating the child in kindness or belittle it in condemnation for being that which it is, a soul who is willing and eager to learn but still adolescent in the much bigger picture.

We have the individual skills to discover the emotional connection to our power but learning how to use it takes persistence and conscious awareness.  The dichotomy is, we’re supposed to feel powerful but we should maintain a healthy respect for both God and our fears.  If we don’t, we become like the hypocrite who preaches that God is the driving force in their life without building their spiritual house on a solid foundation of spiritual logic, the logos.  We become experts at learning philosophy and giving advice without caring for what’s been given unto us as individuals, the Self.  By identifying with someone else’s interpretation of something that can only be self-defined, we become our own golden calf and sacrificial lamb for thinking we can build a house without emotional, physical and psychological substance.  We have to be willing to change and make adjustments to what we think we know by allowing spirit to move us where we need to be.

Spiritual Bypassing

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When the remedy you have offered only increases the disease, then leave him who will not be cured, and tell your story to someone who seeks the truth ~ Rumi

Spiritual bypassing shields us from the fallout of our reality, especially if we’re having a hard time coming to terms with something.  In short, it keeps us disconnected from our true emotional state looking for something outside of ourselves to make us feel better.  On the flip side, it says we’re seeking a spiritual path and it’s much better than some of the alternative coping mechanisms such as substance abuse.  For instance, there’s a great deal of ideas and rhetoric about how to fix the world, even though what’s happening in the world at large may not be effecting our individual reality.  Our spiritual “ego” is very good at telling us we have it all figured out when, in fact, we may be focusing “out there” because there’s something right where we are that we’re trying to avoid.  With spiritual practice we learn how to confront our fear in a healthy manner, understand how we use it to feed imbalanced patterns and begin to quiet our thoughts in order to listen to the answers from withIN.  When we don’t slow down and listen, we tend to find ourselves right back in a “fight or flight” state every time we become emotionally triggered.

Connecting to God is about building a bridge between the physical world and the spiritual world.  Spiritual bypassing happens when we begin to awaken but quickly forget that we live in the physical world where there are many distractions to keep us from tending to The Vineyard.  We use our knowledge and intellect to deflect the intimate connection with God because, in order to do so, we also have to face our own emotional, physical and psychological proclivities.  We can’t heal something with God if we refuse to allow ourselves to be awake and aware to it.  When we go about living only in a spiritual reality, and not drawing upon our experiences in the physical world, we go about denying ourselves the healing that God is offering to each and every one of us.

It’s not about making it right with others, it’s about making it right withIN.  There is a profound spiritual significance to “confession” but confession doesn’t mean getting honest with a priest or a middleman – why would we want to connect with God by proxy?   Participating in spiritual confession means bringing forth an emotionally honest and heartfelt revelation with ourselves in front of God about how we feel.  We give it over to something with greater clarity allowing us to use the experience moving forward as we plant, weed, grow and harvest our vineyard plot of sovereignty.  When we’re shown something we can’t accept, our circumstances continue to repeat themselves until we face it head on.  It’s not always easy to find Truth when, in some cases, we have to question our own sanity right along with it.  As love is patient and kind, we know there is a nurturing power holding space for us until we can confront ourselves into a place of acceptance.  We don’t find our way out of darkness without a little post-traumatic stress sometimes; but God stays with us, gently asking us to have a change of heart so we can find our way home.   We are our own atlas, the atlas that holds the weight of the world on its shoulders or the atlas that is the roadmap to salvation; it’s up to us to choose and choose wisely.

The Logos

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There is a logical interpretation to the message of Christ just as there is great relevance in the polarizing process of em-bodi-ment.  The love of God, in its purest form, is not something we can assimilate in a short amount of time which is why enlightenment is a continuous progression.  Embodiment is the integration of energy and we can feel it as we heal teaching us to recognize it as such.  It goes toward familiarizing us with our own emotional resistance.  With practice walking in grace, love, sovereignty and truth; we begin to objectively create with the energy of God rather than in spite of it. There is a difference between humbly giving ourselves over to a higher power in discipline and intimacy as opposed to giving that power away to the authority of another.  When we don’t establish healthy boundaries we give away our dignity, integrity, self-worth and self-respect; essentially turning over the vineyard plot granted us by divine permission.  If we’re not where we think we’re supposed to be, it’s because we’re not emotionally ready.  We can’t throw the baby out with the bath water because we feel that the word makes us uncomfortable.  In understanding the words, we also understand that they are action words designed to change our way of being and doing, sternly guiding us back on course collectively and individually.  We don’t need a spiritual leader or elected official to connect with God but we do need Mother Earth, the garden and the womb.  It’s a very simplistic and indigenous way to bond using the physical world as a “medium” of communication with the spiritual world.   The Spirit of Earth responds when we court the elements through loving intention, the word of Christ instead of the idealism behind it.

We can go to church every Sunday or study theology our entire lives and still not make an emotional connection with what we’re reading and intellectualizing about.  We are arrogant to think that we can out-smart, misconstrue truth or bypass our emotions with God.  It’s up to us to swallow the medicine whether it be in the form of accountability, humility, discipline, intimacy or learning how to practice the concepts of Grace. How we choose to proceed with our own healing is up to us but God doesn’t show up for us if we don’t ask for our own salvation, especially when we won’t acknowledge where we feel “flawed”.  We know that we’ve (truly) found our own revelations when we have transcended the roles of victim, martyr and/or oppressor of self and others.  Energy flows where focus goes and it’s up to us to learn how to harness our energy from a place of love rather than placing blame for our problems.  For example, if we’re fixated on the “end of the world”, we shouldn’t be surprised when we feel like the world is ending.  If we want to come into unity, we have to recognize where we haven’t been united from withIN– emotionally and otherwise.  We don’t just attract our thoughts, we attract our emotions.  They call it spiritual practice for a reason, we have access to our own emotional space in order to absorb the rational interpretation of a loving presence.  We become more aware of our own emotional, mental and physical hygiene; coming into an organic purity of the heart and soul.  By encouraging an intimately balanced relationship with God, we learn how to have honest relationships with Self and others.  We initiate a greater and more profound change in our lives by living The Golden Rule which leads us to those synchronistic moments that happen when we know Spirit is a moving and active force in our lives.  With em-bodi-ment, the presence comes from withIN; we have a responsibility to realize that we are the physical manifestation of love in action, co-creating in God’s Vineyard.

“Drop your maps and listen to your lostness like a sacred calling into presence.  Here, where the old ways are crumbling and you may be tempted to burn down your own house.  Ask instead for an introduction to that which endures. This place without a foothold is the province of grace.  It is the questing field, most responsive to magic and fluent in myth.  Here, where there is nothing left to lose, sing out of necessity that your ragged heart be heard.  Send out your holy signal and listen for the echo back.” ~ Dreamwork with Toko-pa

For more information about “The Word”, please read “Discover the Power Within You” by Eric Butterworth.

Jennifer Deisher is the writer of the Moon Hippie Mystic blog and has been published on several Consciousness and Healing websites including Wake up World and OM Times Magazine.

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