There are times in life’s journey when we simply feel blue. We sense something is ‘missing’ and emotionally fall into feeling the absence of something stronger than its Presence. Hidden in these moments is an opportunity for spiritual and emotional growth as the universe is opening a doorway to transcendence. It’s our choice whether or not to walk through it. Emotional and spiritual time are not ‘linear’ which is why we may find ourselves emotionally triggered at anytime in life regardless of ‘timing’.
What happens when we’re having a hard time processing our emotions? Most likely, the ‘programmed’ mind will begin to lead us astray in resistance to finding and retrieving these pieces. The ego tends to create familiar or repetitive stories around the emotion because the mind has its own way of interpreting information. It draws from the past and our patterns of behavior in order to interpret and filter our reality. The mind has a hard time letting go of “what’s next?” so the tendency is to go back because it’s familiar. It may obsess on past or future events in order to prevent the true origin of the emotion to surface. We may perceive anger as pain, bargaining as OCD, material worth as self-worth or loss as obsession; the vastness of our emotional expression is as diverse as the human condition.
Questioning how we’re feeling and why doesn’t bode well for keeping the ‘status quo’ and we expend a great deal of our energy trying to sustain said ‘status quo’. Many societal expectations tell us that feeling and expressing emotion is weak or unnecessary. When we have a belief system around this idea, it leads to emotional resistance which is why we have a mental and emotional health epidemic on our hands where the ‘quick fixes’ being prescribed are as dangerous as the cause. Denying emotion can lead to adverse mental effects and psychological complexities that chronically deteriorate our well-being on every level We become depleted and find it increasingly difficult to function in a healthy capacity. The pressure to release these emotions encourages us to find an acceptable way to emotional and spiritual balance as we learn to navigate the paradox of the deep below, the subconscious and unconscious mind.
The Paradox of the Mental Universe
It’s normal for the mind to resist new ideas and experiences as it prefers consistency and patterns. However, the more we try not to focus on something, the more we deny its existence, the more fiercely it will get our attention. For instance, we may have a fundamental trauma around the emotion of abandonment so we focus on feeling connected by filling our lives with casual relationships to jobs or friends instead. But, we don’t let anyone get too close because we haven’t addressed the underlying, root issue. Deep inside we’re also afraid of intimacy and acceptance. We subconsciously keep distance in relationships which causes us to feel the abandonment on a deeper level; by trying not to focus on it, we’re still re-creating it rather than confronting it. Fear of intimacy, acceptance and abandonment are all varying degrees of the same primal wound – the internal root grows many saplings.
Whether we look at emotional release as healthy or detrimental is all in the perspective. The fact remains that it’s our responsibility to take care of ourselves by listening and responding. The hardest thing is making peace with our own turbulence but we truly can’t have it any other way. Life is moving, it’s not waiting for us to decide but it’s encouraging us to lighten our emotional baggage as we go. When it’s confronted it ultimately leads to spiritual en-lighten-ment but as it goes unchecked it brings a great deal of ‘stress’. When we finally stop running, we literally pass through the ‘mental’ realm of our own loveless projections; what we know as ‘judgement’ of self and others. We have to love our ‘karma’ because it’s the universal reflection of our deepest wounds and greatest gifts all at once.
This is when we see that 2 opposite extremes can both be true at the same time. The child of ‘abuse’ becomes a loving parent but finds themselves triggered later in life by the dichotomy of self as parent and child. The wound is still there but our perspective is always changing so we can heal on a deeper level. In spirit, all is One and “as it should be”. We are human beings processing information and sometimes we have a hard time finding acceptance. The big hairy monster in the closet is typically our very own resistance to something we already know inside.
Pain is a natural occurrence of the human experience and emotional pain is no different. Unlike physical pain, emotional pain can be avoided and denied until we have gone from pain to suffering. Additionally, we sometimes go through tough and transitional moments in life such as a loss, endangerment or even a natural shift in perspective that causes doubt or insecurity to arise. When we learn to sit in stillness with our emotions, we learn to reach a meditative state as the observer. Sometimes we can mistake base mentality thinking or listening to the ego’s rhetoric as being ‘mindful’ of our emotions.
In spirit, we learn to connect with the vastness of Love in the Universe but we all have an inner antagonist. A purposeful response is protecting our own dignity and self-worth by finding out what it is and what it wants. We can’t make this connection with our mind rather we must make an emotional and spiritual connection through our heart. It requires a part of us to step aside and this is where we need to find patience. It can be difficult to quiet the mind. If it weren’t, we wouldn’t notice that everyone seems to be talking while, at the same time, no one seems to be listening. We all want to be heard but we have to also learn to listen; listen to Self, the Earth, the Art, the Music, the Yoga, the Breath, the Wisdom of our Sage and timeless Spirit; the infinite withIN. The universe speaks in a quiet whisper, the ‘ego’ speaks quite differently.
We are all healers. By healing self, we open the prison doors to emotional freedom and expression. It’s okay to contemplate and question. Ultimately, it’s our ability to find sanity in an insane world that is natural and organic. It’s in our nature to be curious about the universe and, when we play the universal scavenger hunt, we become demystified…our own mystic. When we look to nature and natural creation to soothe our wounds, we detach from the deafening rhetoric and find a place to plant new roots. We must rely on the truth of our eternal spirit to grow free from our primal wounds and the distractions of society’s limiting institutions. When we decompress from our pain, we heal the individual and collective psyche. Letting go lifts the burden of tension and brings clarity helping us better manage what’s on our proverbial plate. Clarity returns as spirit takes over lighting the path to a more peaceful way of being.
We can’t have both worlds – to be true to self we must honor our inner world and our emotional wounds. Blue water sometimes feels more like fire water. The fire burns off the dense energy that creates the patterns and programs of insanely doing the same thing over and over expecting different results. As we leave the insanity and face the ‘wake of damage’ it left behind, the water soothes the burn of ‘regret’ . Remember, honest emotional expression is Beautiful. It’s every color of the rainbow. Blue is the color of our truth and our divinity. It’s a Gift, even though it may not feel that way in the moment. It’s what we create with it that matters. Something Blue, maybe?
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