What do we know of Source, of Love? It seems we have a great deal to learn of its presence and how it works in our lives. I know I do, I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t doubt its existence in my life from time to time. I know it brings powerful healing to our lives if we choose this path.
To allow its presence to move in our lives; we will be called to acknowledge areas in our lives that aren’t working on our life path and spiritual journey. It takes a great deal of courage and humility to allow the emotional convergence of healing to ensue, especially when confronting trauma, depression, unhealthy attachments and/or addictions. The only way out is through; especially when it comes to the chemical, hormonal and addictive nature of past trauma and addiction which create chemical bonds in the brain called “trauma bonds”. This is part of our painbody and must be confronted to obtain clarity and healing. It begins with shadow work which brings emotional accountability to Self and the people around us that we love and care about. During shadow work, our primary focus in “Garage Therapy”, we work to find the calcified, heavy emotional and spiritual blocks that prevent us from living our truth in peace and freedom. Be aware that we can actually become chemically addicted to the emotional blocks and trauma bonds that cause the psyche (mind, body, spirit) to resist the spiritual and emotional energy of love.
The Drug is Gone
How many times do we go through this program? The mental health and substance abuse recovery programs are failing by avoiding the fact that their drugs and treatment aren’t working for most people. In many religious practices, psychology is left to the wayside to uphold the institution. In most mental health practices we find that natural processes such as grief, PTSD, loss and spiritual “disconnection” are interpreted as “mental illness”. We medicate anything and anyone who doesn’t fit the “mainstream” idea of how to think and feel while, at the same time, we’re force-fed objectified images of sexuality falsely posing as a loving, intimate connection. Impossible expectations. We have to acknowledge and speak out about our difficulties by finding another way to heal that also considers a spiritual remedy for our real world, emotional afflictions.
On the other side of the quick fixes and substances, we find the emotional “addiction” remains. Part of this journey for all of us is being willing and able to confront our inner antagonist, whatever role this antagonist may play in our lives. We confront these emotional ninja demons as many times as it takes until we find and retrieve the pieces of our soul that knowingly (or unknowingly) exist in fear, trauma, anger, hate, sorrow, self-sabotage, self-indulgence, victim mentality, addiction and so much more. The only way out is through but this can be an overwhelming task. Loving what comes up and through is difficult as we’re learning what love is, and isn’t. And, these are just words on a computer screen. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. It doesn’t mean anything until we’re ready to mentally, spiritually and emotionally connect with it on a conscious level=the Experience of love and not just its shadowed projection; the antagonist and our own resistance.
We can’t let shame and stigma lead us into delusional thinking of spiritual “unworthiness”. It’s part of the problem. What would Love do? Because the “antagonist” doesn’t honor the natural process of healing. Our brain actually releases chemicals that encourage us to stay in destructive states and we have to be mindful of the cause and effect in our own lives. It’s not “negative” to be consciously aware that we can become internally dependent on emotional energy, people, objects, materialism, ideas and even the past. Not all addictions are substances. Sometimes we have a hard time realizing that history repeats itself until we work through the moment. Moments pass as we get time, space and distance from our shock and denial – our timeless experiences that come up until we confront them.
The Big Flush
Truth is on the other side of denial. The problem is that we can’t be conscious of our own emotional addictions and/or resistance if we’re looking for a quick fix to dull the symptoms, the pain. We never get to the root of the problem this way. We have to confront the root and dilute the brain with another substance, chemically speaking. This is where love and spirituality come in, the surrender to a higher power that may already be working in your life even if you don’t know it’s there. We can only ask what our consciousness knows to receive and we can only receive what we can handle. Most of the time it’s already right in front of us, it’s our expectations that give us tunnel vision. Free the mind and the rest will follow. Everything starts at a quantum level and we have to learn to be okay with that. Love is patient.
Love is big enough to handle the truth, you can’t truly embody one without the other. Love doesn’t protect us from pain because part of loving ourselves is consistently taking moral inventory of how we’re contributing to our own dysfunction and misery. We can’t be too hard on ourselves but we have to flush out the bullshit at the same time, starting with burning through our addictions and pain. Love is big enough to withstand the toxicity of our poison and will still be on the other side while we digest it and, eventually, crap it out. And we will, because part of the process is swallowing some really hard truths and jagged little pills. In the meantime, Love is honest and can withstand the lies we tell ourselves until we “see the Light”. Love can endure our questions of Faith. It’s bigger than us, it’s more powerful than us and it will never die.
Music to Drive it Home: Coldplay-Hymn For the Weekend
 Trauma bonding, a term developed by Patrick Carnes, is the misuse of fear, excitement, sexual feelings, and sexual physiology to entangle another person. Many primary aggressors tend toward extreme behavior and risk taking, and trauma bonding is a factor in their relationships.
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